I was Smart, Once

March 3, 2011 § 8 Comments

I used to know a lot more than I do now.

I had the best opinions about everything. I knew how to solve complicated problems because I was right.

I was going to be President. It would be easy, I already had all the answers.

I didn’t have experience, but I didn’t need it. I had a great imagination and logic.

I was smart once, but I also missed out on some things.

Namely: grace and mercy.

I didn’t realize how much grace I really needed. I lost sight of mercy in the pride that I “figured out” that I needed Christ. Somehow I saw that I needed Christ “back then,” before I asked Him to be my Savior, but then I had it handled from there.

I would put on a self-righteous smug smile and say I loved the lost, but in reality I found them less intelligent than me.

I never stopped to consider their backgrounds and experiences that could drive them away from Christ. I never considered that grace was the answer. Instead I spewed judgment. I was right and they were wrong.

It took me many years to discover it wasn’t judgment that brings others to Christ it is grace. Romans 2:4 says, “Or do you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, forbearance and patience, not realizing that God’s kindness is intended to lead you to repentance?”

Grace and kindness lead us to the cross. Getting a glimpse of the depth of God’s grace, the magnitude of His kindness draws me to Him. Swimming in the sea of His kindness and grace is where I find a deep and abiding love for Him.

The more I realize the depth of my need, the more His grace and kindness grow. The larger His grace and kindness, the larger my love for Him. The more I love Him the more I desire to obey His commands.

His ways are upside-down, inside-out and topsy-turvy in our society of personal rights. He even told us in 2 Cor 1:27 that, “…God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.”

I was smart, once. Now I am a humbled, grace covered, child of God. I hope as I swim in God’s sea of grace, I fall more in love with Him and that my love with be contagious. I know I have said it before, but knowing I am in desperate need of graces frees me to extend grace to others. The more I swim in that ocean of God’s grace, the easier it is for me to live a life of grace.

Do you have a story to tell about how you used to be smart and God changed your brilliance to foolishness? I would love to hear your stories. The comment button is under the title of the post.

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§ 8 Responses to I was Smart, Once

  • Angela Freeman says:

    Romans 2:4 This wonderful verse you mentioned above has been special to me because I learned it many years ago, when I was a young girl through a song by Leslie Phillips. The chorus of that song has played over and over many times in my mind through the years, really bringing home that it is “His KINDNESS that leads us to repentance.” What a wonderful Heavenly Father we have!

  • I was the best mom in the world… Until I had children of my own. I was constantly thinking, “I’ll never do that when I have kids,” with judgement and criticism in my heart. Now, I only hope that I can stumble through this motherhood journey without permanently scarring my children by all my mistakes! I am a grace-saturated mess. πŸ™‚

    • I totally agree with that girl. I am glad that for the most part children bounce. πŸ˜‰ I am praying my motherhood journey is filled with grace from me and to me. πŸ˜‰

  • D2 says:

    Speak for yourself, Miss Angela, I still know a lot. J/K, hehehe.

    Honestly, though, I may not be as booksmart as I used to be, but I’ve become more Biblesmart, if you know what I mean.

  • Thanks for this, Angela. Many times I’ve had someone tell me, “I’ve done too much…God couldn’t love me now … But you don’t know what I’ve done…etc.” There are some things we’ve done, said, thought, that cannot be undone, unsaid, etc. So, I often find myself saying, “Grace is the only way ‘out’. It’s only God’s grace that enables you to change, to be forgiven, to go on from here. You can’t undo what you’ve done – but you can accept the grace of God and still have a good life with Him.” I must remind myself of this, too, at times.

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