A Miracle…Really

April 12, 2011 § 4 Comments

I witnessed a miracle yesterday. Actually I was the one healed, so this is pretty good stuff. Seriously…

I couldn’t get up Monday morning. I hit snooze a few (five or six) times. Then I actually changed my alarm so I could get more than 9 minutes of sleep in a row. I was wiped out. Finally I rolled out of bed and started my morning routine.

Then it happened. I rubbed my eye and suddenly I felt like I had something in my eye. I tried washing it with water. Then my husband tried flushing it with contact solution. Next we found the eye wash kit and tried that to no avail. I showered and tried getting whatever was in there or felt like was in there out. My eye was red, watering, and basically refusing to open. There was no way I could get the kids up much less drive them to school.

Miracle #1 My Wonderful husband got the kids up and ready. He took out the trash. All I had to do was help prepare breakfast and make his lunch so we could quickly leave the house.

Miracle #2 The kids did GREAT in the non-routine racing out the door sort of way. It was amazing.

Miracle #3 My husband called an ophthalmologist who agreed to see me first thing!!! So my man dropped J and myself off at this doctor’s office and headed to work.

Miracle #4 A friend was in the same office building and was able to meet me at the doctor’s office. She sat with me through my appointment. Then drove J and I home!

Miracle #5 My eye was still bothering me when we got home. It was really uncomfortable. The doctor had given me a steroid eye drop in the office and sent me home with lubricating drops to take about once an hour or more if needed. He told me if I wasn’t better by Tuesday that I would need to come back to his office. About 2 and half hours later, my eye really started bothering me again. I had just put drops in it so I slowly massaged (really I rubbed it but massage sounds better). Suddenly the pain and sensation that a large grain of sand was gone. God healed my eye!

A miraculous day indeed…God worked it all out in His perfect timing and in His perfect way. He is so good to work in our lives!

So how is God working in your life?


The Trees and Me and Something Free for You

April 11, 2011 § 4 Comments

Sycamore trees fascinate me. We have several small ones in our front yard. Until about a week ago they held tight to their brown dead leaves – leaves that were once bright and green. Early last fall they turned a beautiful orange color and then they turned brown and drab. Those stubborn trees held tight to their dead leaves through fall, all of winter, and into spring. Finally last week during some unusually high winds, these trees finally let go of their dead leaves. It was at that point – when they had given up what they were comfortable with – that their spring buds for new leaves could form.

Those trees and I have a lot in common. I get used to the way I do things or how I do things. I get used to sin in my life and I cling to it. Even though it is brown and dead and nasty. I like it. Maybe it started as something I was doing for God, but it turned into something about me. Oh, but I cling to it. I cling to it because I remember what it once was. It was once beautiful and it even turned a glorious orange color for a short time. But God has other plans. In order for me to grow and change and stay healthy I have to be willing to let go. I like my trees have to give up what I am comfortable with so that God can grow me and change me.

Is that true in your life? Do you hang onto things God is calling you to let go so that He can do a work in your life? Would you share with me?

Here is what I am letting go of for God to do a work in me…It is also what begins my list of things I am thankful for:

381. God is tearing apart my little dreams that aren’t His and replacing them with buds of new dreams that are God-sized dreams.
383. My kids running and hollering together.
384. God is changing my heart
385. My supportive husband
386. God’s word (my breath of life)
387. Encouraging friends
388. God is making my heart teachable
389. Rejection that reminds me God has other plans
390. Nerf dart tag
391. Sound of laughter
392. Speaking truth into the lives of kids (mine and others)
393. Health
394. Water
395. My husband’s heart
396. Sweet friends who testify to my husband’s heart
397. Encouragement from others walking similar roads
398. That God would use even me
399. Forgiveness from my kids
400. Three blessings with their arms wrapped around their daddy.
401. I have an exciting free resource for you…Go to Resource page from the list on the left hand column. I pray it blesses you.

What are you thankful for? Leave a comment! I can’t wait to hear from you!

Rethinking My Dreams

March 8, 2011 § 10 Comments

What is not going “your way,” but God’s way? Share what God is doing in His way. I can’t wait to hear about what He is doing for you.

Big Boy Bed, Tears, and A Thankful Heart

January 25, 2011 § 3 Comments

We finally did it. My sweet little man now has a big boy bed.

I know that he was well past the age of needing a big boy bed.
Signs he needed a big boy bed included:
he has to bend his legs to fit into the pack-n-play when we go traveling and
he climbed out of his crib opened his bedroom door and went to play with his sisters after nap the other day.

I resisted because…the thought of not having a crib in my house broke my heart. Not because my little man, my youngest was getting big. No I was rejoicing in his every milestone and thankful for each moment.

No I was sad because I wanted another little one in the house who needed a crib. I realize that may sound crazy – I already have three kids – but it is true. My womb for all scientific, medical purposes is dead. Each month my cycle mocks me, reminding me unless God makes a miracle, my womb will bear no more fruit.

Saturday as we tore apart his crib and put together his new big boy bed, my body literally ached. My heart was heavy knowing, knowing, knowing…Knowing that if I were to get pregnant, I would have to have test after test to make sure my baby was in my womb not somewhere else. Knowing that the very thing I long for could very well cost me my life. Yet I still long for another bundle…

Friday E asked me what I would name two boys and a girl if we got to have them. The question stung. I answered in small sentences remembering times when dreaming for more was easy. Before I knew that God’s way was not the way I was planning. I talked of names we had thought about in the past while holding back the tears of longing and waiting.

L asked last night…Words that tear at my heart. She doesn’t know that it hurts. All she did was take note of the three empty chairs at our table. Yes three chairs…I dreamed God would bless my womb with three. My last IVF cycle we transferred three precious babes. Yet none of them survived…

Tears have been flowing. Yet there is a sweetness in them. I know my God in a way I never would have if He didn’t bring me to this place. This place of longing, waiting, and trusting Him for a miracle. The miracle of life within, or a babe that we are asked to adopt, or a change in my heart. He knows the form this miracle will take. He knows if those three chairs will one day be filled.

And I thank Him that He holds my tears in a bottle, He takes note of them, He is the God of all comfort. I thank Him for His plans for my family and for His peace (the kind earned after a war) that passes understanding. So I thank Him for big boy beds, tears, and His grace that holds them all together.

What has God taught you through tough times He has led you through? Is there anything I can pray for you? Feel free to leave a comment.

Why the Little Things?

January 19, 2011 § 6 Comments

Longing…Oh the stretching, longing, burning…

The dream of what could be, where to go, but how to get there hangs in the air…

We can’t see it. The journey from here to there, but the hope of there is planted firmly in our hearts.

The here seems insignificant, unimportant, little. Oh but what we do here in the seemingly insignificant, unimportant, and little is what shapes the journey. What we do with the little we have matters because when we are faithful in what seems little, He gives us more.

Remember the parable of the talents? (Matthew 25:14-30). When the servant is faithful in small things, God gives that servant more. Not to stress over, but more talents to use for His glory.

So I challenge you all who feel like God has given you “little” (laundry, dishes, little hands and feet, an insignificant job, a small blog, whatever it is that seems little to you), do the “little” things well and then He can entrust you with the “big” things. (FYI little hands and feet are not little things even if they seem that way some days. They are BIG things.)

My dream is that Rethinking My Thinking ministries will flourish for God’s glory. That I will speak and write His words to encourage and challenge others to be more like Him. That together we will walk this journey of faith in order to bring glory, praise and honor to the Lord Jesus Christ. Honestly that big dream, seems unreachable at times. Oh, but if it is God’s will it will happen. In the mean time I am reaching who He wants me to…You! 😉 I pray that this blog is a blessing and encouragement to you. I pray that as I share the things God is teaching me, you are  challenged to walk closer to Him. All for His glory….

So with that in mind, what would you like to hear from me? Are there any topics or specific encouragement you need? I want to serve God by serving you. Let me know! I can’t wait to hear from you.

The End is Near Part 2

October 8, 2010 § 2 Comments

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“The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded…” 1 Peter 4:7

You can check out part one of this post here.

Since the end of all things is near – near in God’s sense of time, not ours – Peter gives us instructions. There first instruction is to be clear minded. Honestly that is one of the hardest things for me to be. Clear minded. He is not telling you to clear your  mind of all thought. Instead he is telling us to be sensible, use discretion, be sane. We are living in the end times. I see so much around me that distracts me. I can hardly remember to give my children allergy medicine in the morning without be distracted by dishes, lunches, my meal, etc. My mind is often not clear and the clutter keeps me from being sane and discerning. We are distracted by – things, people, ministry, etc. The bottom line is that there are lots of good things we can focus on and do, but if we are about the best things, the things God has for us to do, then we are no longer distracted. We are not clear minded.

Do you know why Peter tells us to be clear minded? He says at the end of 1 Peter 4:7, “…so that you can pray.”

We are so distracted that we cannot pray.

We are distracted by national politics, world politics, getting the next promotion, making sure our kids get the education they need, the lady who cut us off on the way to work, our boss who isn’t making wise choices, our money or lack of it, how clean or organized our houses are…Some of these things are good things to keep in mind. We are to manage some of these things, be knowledgeable about them, pray about them, but they can become all-consuming. Some of these things we need to just let go and move on. We have to find the things God has for us to be about. Otherwise we will be distracted and we will not be able to pray…

Father thank You that You are in control of the last times. Thank You that we can trust You to work out Your perfect will among the chaos of sin. Forgive us for being distracted by things that are not You. Help us to be clear minded in You. So that we can pray. In Jesus’ Name we pray Amen.

What are you distracted by? Let’s lay them down at Jesus’ feet, so we can pray.

The End is Near Part 1

October 4, 2010 § 2 Comments

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“Almost there,” inwardly I cheer myself on as I near the end of my run. “This is the end, I can do it.”

Now don’t go thinking I run a marathon or anything. I have only recently began running again and towards the end of two miles I have to convince myself that I can make it to the end. As I am working out I love the cues that I am nearing the end. As long as I know it is just around the bend or near that next tree, then I know I can make it. When it comes to life, knowing that the end could be around the corner awakens me from the mind numbing monotony of day-to-day life. If I am not careful, I let dishes, laundry, bills, screaming kids, things that break get in the way of truly living life. Recently while reading 1 Peter, I was reminded that, “The end of all things is near.” 1 Peter 4:7

This is Peter’s wake-up call to us all.

His encouragement to end strong.

His call to arms.

Then he lays out instructions for what we are to do in view of the end. The end of all things. Now I realize this end was promised nearly 2,000 years ago. That doesn’t seem very “near” in our human understanding. The point is are you ready for the end? I want to be. I need to be. So I am going to hunker down in 1 Peter for a while. In the next four or so posts, we will look at what we are called to do in view of the end.

Oh Heavenly Father, thank You that You do not want us living in mind numbing monotony. Thank You that You have plans for us. Forgive us Lord, for living on auto-pilot not allowing You to change us. Help us Lord to live with the end in view. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.

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